Current Mood: Sad
I have a great story filled with amazing testimonies that I’ve yet to share. If I shall live long enough, I will certainly tell all about it, as I desire to tell the story in its entirety and hopefully do it justice. It include supernatural events that had I not kept records, documentation and/or witnesses, I doubt if anyone would believe. But each event came with its own cost. My greatest elevations always hinged on even greater humiliations, in that I had to suffer great losses, great heartache and tremendous warfare. I do not use the word ‘warfare‘ lightly or erroneously as some do; for there were evidence of occultic warfare and demonic forces working against me (my life has been everything but normal). These are different and in addition to any consequence I had to pay because of my disobedience (willing or otherwise) or any procrastination on my part to do what He’s commanded. A soldier is required to follow the commands of his or her commander; therefore, my obedience has never been optional. Nevertheless, God has chosen to deal with me in His endless mercy, lovingkindness, and being my Shield, even when my pain resulted in me refusing to speak (teach, prophesy, intercede, etc) and constantly begging Him for my death. This has been my constant plea for now more than 101 days.
Today as I was running a few errands, parts from the following passage kept replaying in my mind. It wasn’t because I just read it or even read it this year, but rather the Holy Spirit helping me to recall what I’ve read some time ago. As for the content within these verses, most people would not truly understand this (only since most are not prophets and many would not give up their career, lifestyle, friends, family and material possessions at the Lord’s command to surrender their entire life to God and His church); however, certain prophetic and apostolic officers will experientially know this all too well. As a teacher (biblical and prophetic), I’ve come to learn that many wanna-be-prophets (and sometimes newly awakened prophets) like to study the books of the prophets in order to mimic, pretend or ‘appear’ as a prophet to themselves and to others; whereas the true ones don’t do that but rather live their life just to later find out that what they’ve been living has already been written in the books of the prophets.
For many reasons, I am glad that God gives us examples in Scripture; as the prophet Jeremiah put into words what I’ve been living but unable to express because my heart has been overfilled with so much pain and rejection. You can find this passage in the Book of Jeremiah 20:7-18 AMPC, where he laments to God over his very unpopular ministry.
Thank You Lord for Your Word and care.
A PROPHET’S UNPOPULAR MINISTRY
7 …..O Lord, You have persuaded and deceived me, and I was persuaded and deceived; You are stronger than I am and You have prevailed. I am a laughingstock all the day; everyone mocks me.
8 For whenever I speak, I must cry out and complain; I shout, Violence and destruction! For the word of the Lord has become to me a reproach and a derision and has brought me insult all day long.
9 If I say, I will not make mention of [the Lord] or speak any more in His name, in my mind and heart it is as if there were a burning fire shut up in my bones. And I am weary of enduring and holding it in; I cannot [contain it any longer].
10 For I have heard many whispering and defaming, [There is] terror on every side! Denounce him! Let us denounce him! Say all my familiar friends, they who watch for my fall, Perhaps he will be persuaded and deceived; then we will prevail against him, and we will get our revenge on him.
11 But the Lord is with me as a mighty and terrible One; therefore my persecutors will stumble, and they will not overcome [me]. They will be utterly put to shame, for they will not deal wisely or prosper [in their schemes]; their eternal dishonor will never be forgotten.
12 But, O Lord of hosts, You Who try the righteous, Who see the heart and the mind, let me see Your vengeance on them, for to You have I revealed and committed my cause.
13 Sing to the Lord! Praise the Lord! For He has delivered the life of the poor and needy from the hands of evildoers.
14 Cursed be the day on which I was born! Let not the day on which my mother bore me be blessed!
15 Cursed be the man who brought the tidings to my father, saying, A son is born to you!—making him very glad.
16 And let that man be like the cities which the Lord overthrew, and did not relent. Let him hear the [war] cry in the morning and the shouting of alarm at noon,
17 Because he did not slay me in the womb, so that my mother might have been my grave, and her womb always great.
18 Why did I come out of the womb to see labor and sorrow, that my days should be consumed in shame?
-Jeremiah 20:7-18 AMPC
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