Living Under God's Favor

Learning to Let Go

Have you ever thought you were completely delivered from or over something, and just then, God helped you to see that you weren’t? Well, that happened to me recently; as recent as yesterday.

There was a project that I helped organize and it had become very consuming of the time God wanted from me. Almost every night for the last two weeks I found myself asking God for forgiveness for not doing what He was telling me to do because I was so preoccupied with this everything else or too tired from it.

Yesterday during my morning devotion, the Lord told me to turn the project over to a member on my team. I told Him that I didn’t know if she’d want me to do that to her (isn’t that something!!!). He told me again. I then realized that I’d better obey though deep in my heart I didn’t want to turn it over. I asked God to then make the opportunity, and He did. THAT DAY! The person He told me to turn it over to sent me an email and in her email she displayed such passion about the project. In addition, she also added in her email “I don’t want you to think I’m taking over, but don’t forget to do — – –“. I smiled when I seen the email because I knew this was the opportunity God created for me. So I responded to the email and told her that she was doing what God laid in her heart to do. I then called her and asked her to take over the project. She graciously accepted the task though the task was pretty detailed and intricate. It was pretty hard for me to do, turning it over, but I knew I had to.

I thank God. I know for a fact that one of the things He’s put in me was vision, the ability to set up the vision, but then He wants me to turn it over and go do it over again elsewhere. How interesting is that? When I first realized that God would have me doing that throughout my life, I thought I wouldn’t have a problem letting go of whatever it was that God wanted me to let go of. Boy was I wrong!

Right now He is teaching me to let go of a lot of things. This doesn’t even begin to touch the more personal things He’s asking me to let go of, but you now what? I’d much rather be obedient than not. It isn’t hard, especially when it seems like God is telling you to hurt yourself. I am struggling with another area, that’s more personal, that’s He telling me to let go of. God help me, because I want to obey. Correction, I need to obey. I lived on the other side of obedience (disobedience) and that is not a good place to be. Neither is it worth it when all is said and done because you usually wind up paying more than you would if you’d let it go the first time when God tells you.

Please pray for me!